Irrational Anxiety #1

In an attempt to make myself realize how ridiculous I am…okay, rather, in an attempt to recover and get this anxiety under control, I’ve decided to make a series of blog posts about the things that cause me anxiety that shouldn’t.  I have loads and loads of them, and I think I will be better equipped to understand myself if I write them down.  To be able to tangibly see them and try to change how I  react to these things.

My goal in life right now is to get this anxiety under control through medication and cognitive behavior therapy because, as it stands right now, this is no kind of life until I get better.  I can’t hope to work on any other part of my recovery until I have a good handle on this.

So here goes.  Irrational Anxiety #1

I am constantly worried that I am going to lose bladder and bowel function.

I don’t need to go into details obviously, but this is a constant fear of mine (especially when I’m away from home).

Now, this may stem from the fact that after a woman has children, it is possible for them to have incontinence from time to time.  I’ve heard this over and over again.  I NEVER have, at least so far.  This has never been a realized anxiety.  I also have digestive and bowel problems, but never in a way that I have lost control of them.  I am so afraid that I will lose control in front of people, and I will be mortified.  I am be afraid that no one will ever look at me the same again. I’m worried that if I stop worrying about it…that’s when it will happen.

Yeah, irrational is an understatement.

This is something that I should not worry about, at all.  If I does happen, I can worry about it then.  If people judge me because of it, they are not worth my time.  I know the people who are important to me never would.  I do my “exercises” probably more than anybody in history.  My pelvic floor is strong as hell.  I repeat again, this hasn’t happened yet.

Why do I worry about something that I have no history with?

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. kate1975
    Mar 10, 2011 @ 13:26:13

    I think worry and anxiety can become a way in someone’s mind something that protects against the problem with the worry and anxiety. Rationally we know that it doesn’t, but worry and anxiety are not rational. I know that meds can definitely help with this.

    I got a lot of help from cognitive therapy where I was trying to calm my mind down from fears, worry, and negative self-talk. I used the book “The New Mood Book” by Dr. David Burns with my therapist. It helped me a lot. I also have an anxiety and phobia book that deals with a lot of the same issues, though I haven’t worked on it yet.

    Good and healing thoughts to you.

    Kate

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  2. insaneheart09
    Mar 10, 2011 @ 13:42:24

    Thanks Kate. I will check that book out. I can use all the help I can get.

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  3. kate1975
    Mar 11, 2011 @ 21:15:03

    Hi,

    I had to look up the title to be sure that I rememebered it correctly. The other book is called The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook. As I said it covers many of the same cognitive methods. Good and healing thoughts to you.

    Kate

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