I haven’t posted in more than a month now, and I don’t want people worried about me, so this is a quick update.
I hurt my right hand not long after my last blog post. I haven’t been able to write for any amount of time before it swells up and I’m in pain, and typing is almost as bad. I’ve been avoiding it in an attempt to heal.
I have been on my new anti-anxiety meds for over a month now, and I can certainly tell the difference. I’m calmer overall, and can react in a normal way to stressful situations. I am on 20mg of Celexa, which I take once per day, and .5mg of Ativan that I take when I am extra anxious. I’ve been noticing that I need to take at least one Ativan per day. I’m definitely thankful for the relief. I have a doctor’s appointment next week, and we’ll see if she’ll keep me on my regimen or if she’ll change anything.
I think I would be even less anxious if I were able to write in my personal journal. For the past few years, I’ve kept a handwritten journal that I write in most nights, curled up in my comfy chair. Since I’ve hurt my hand, I haven’t been able to write at all, and that is very disheartening. I’m trying to be extra careful with my hand so it will heal faster. I need to be able to write, so I can purge my thoughts and clear my head. I don’t know where to go with my anger, frustration, etc.
I will end this post now, as my hand is hurting again. I just wanted to check in. I have been keeping up with the blogs I read, and hopefully soon I will be able to join you all again.